New Year’s Resolution.
so I am over wallowing in a pool of sadness about my single condition.(its not really a condition)
and for the past 3 years my new years resolutions have mainly been to find a man in the following year etc. etc. and for the past 3 Decembers I have been slightly bummed when I realized that my goal for the past year had not been met.
after some self-reflection and various conversations with friends I have decided that I have 2 mantras/goals for 2010…1. “I can’t be bothered” 2. My own best friend in 2010. Basically I am going to spend more time and effort doing what I want to do for fun and not being so worried and worked up about finding a man, cause hey finding a man is not the problem people, its what kind of man you find that is the issue. And going to bars and clubs do not help. The boys in bars in clubs are awfully entertaining but that is about as far as it goes. And the “I cant be bothered” part means I need to be less worked up over these men who I am not even trying to deal with in the first place, and getting all upset when they aren’t trying to date me. lesson learned: holding my breath waiting for this boy to join my life and magically make everything better and make me feel validated is a waste of time and energy and is really setting me up for a greater disappointment when I do actually meet a guy I want to date.
I have no solid relationship experience. Most of my theories are taken from my friends experiences, movies and all the various couples around me. Which is probally why I am so cray cray wackadoodle most of the time/think something is gravely wrong with me for being 25 and not with someone. 2010 is dedicated to me being happy and well-adjusted.
