5 boys.
yourhusbandisnotontheinternet:
so to get my “6 month guarentee” I have to email 5 active members of match.com.
it shouldn’t be hard but I have a hard time of getting across my witty fun friendly banter without sounding like a mega-biotch. Example:
this one boy had on a RIDICULOUS white tuxedo in his profile picture. It was hideous, and he was standing in front of a painted night skyline. it had to be a fake picture, had to be. And he had a bunch of witty banter in his about me section. so I wrote him an email entitled “Nice Tuxedo”. I cant really remember anything else of what I said, but I think it was cute. So imagine my surprise when I did not hear back from him…what? I told my friend Rachel about it and she basically said what if he was actually wearing that tuxedo for real, what if it was a real picture? maybe that is his favorite suit, you totally just ragged on him….and I felt bad. From then on we pretty much refered to any situation where I was making fun of a guy to the point of him getting upset/hurting boys feelings/saying something in jest and having it taken seriously as a “Nice Tuxedo” type of situation.
Cause the truth is (I finally admitted to myself after reading this girls memior last week which was pretty much a page by page of my life..) I am afraid of boys. There I said it. Unless we have a brother-sister type of relationship I am petrified of you. Seriously. I don’t know how to function. I am getting better with this and at 25 I am at the point where I can hold a decent conversation with an attractive male with out turning a crazy shade of yellow-red (almost) and I know its not that serious but for me it is. I can’t explain this un healthy fear of men. I think it has something to do with the male/female ratio of my school?
ANYWAYS. all that said I am just trying to not be all “nice tuxedo” when I email people. cause its easy for me to crack jokes and laugh, not so easy to be sincere and vunerable. here’s to becoming a functioning adult.
I feel like you are writing this blog through me. Im nervous of attractive males as well, but once you meet an attractive male and start to undoubly know that he is at least somewhat into you you’ll find yourself feeling less and less nervous and your nervousness turns into pure thrill, well at least for me.
Vannessa. I feel like you are my online dating yoda. Your reblogs give me insight and wisdom that I need. I hope that nervousness does turn into thrill for me. Cause I am tired of turning red and fumbling on my words. I would like to make someone nervous to the point they can’t hold eye contact with me for too long. where is he hiding?
